will i ever be happy again depression

One more important thing when u start or miss one day it will affect ur mood greatly.either u will feel better or worse.and even if u have taken medicines for 2 to 3 weeks or even more and withdraw it u will feel well immunse uplift in ur mood,but again u will be depress.just take medicines 5 to 6 months.find a suitable dose slowly adopt good habits and gradually reduce ur dose.And u wil be out of it but u wil have to follow the suitable habits thought out the life. You can feel better – you just need the right combo of therapy & meds & cognitive therapy to stop the negative ruminations. A nerve med is better for him than the regular anti d’s. My memory is so extremely poor that I despair. I can be super happy at times but mostly sad. You are important. If you are ever in need of a friend who will never let you down, then ask Jesus to be your friend. He nicked off with our 2 boys 11&14 now 33&36 to America and have not seen them since.Your wife must really love you and you need to understand somehow she would not stay unless she felt respected .BT I m totally kkk now…BT I want to myself again…plzz tell that how can I be urself after that..n plzz anywon who is suffering from depression plzz contact me…I want talk with yu..be coz no one understanding our feelings except yu all guy’s…plzz anyone contact me…. It just basically puts me on pause every time im stoned.. oh and i cannot sleep without getting stoned at night i get real.bad back ache like my spine is going to snap. It’s just beyond me now. I spent nights in the hospital 2 or 3 times a month. I am eternally grateful to that doctor as between her & my mum I dread to think. I’m currently on lexapro and starting to feel a small lift in my mood, still a long way to go. Eventually, I destroy the love felt for me, making her feel unappreciated, unloved and devalued, because I’ve COMPLETELY withdrawn into myself. deleted_user 07/16/2009. Ann. Some of the most discouraging things I heard later was “it seemed like you didn’t even try hard to get out of it.” Those words still encourage me for doing what I’m doing today and in the future, I hope to find little writing jobs where I can write for someone for money to get myself started. No one knows how I feel. I know how depression feels and talking with somebody about it really helped me personally. Hey..friends same story of my life…I don’t knw which type of depression hit me For a few months, I would only fall into hopeless nihilism when I was drunk, which wasn't often. No one is. And I just want it to be erased. Cant afford to.have 2 kids 3 dogs. She has been a tremendous support and I know we can come out the other side. It’s because the focus has been taken off you. HATE. Im protected by a layer of fat that didnt get there from eating. -I wish I would have back the enthusiasm and happiness that I had before. . He ended up having major back surgery, and bad problems with his legs and feet. I didn’t know how to make friends anymore. I realized after my wife passed away that my life had changed … It works I promise it does but you have to actually go in with hope that it can get better. The damage doesn’t disappear overnight after you’ve started feeling better. So I made hard decision and probably a horrible one to quit my job so that I could get help and be home for even just sometime to work on myself and my family. It lasted for about 6-7 months until I could start thinking reasonably again. Will I ever be free of this condition? I have suffered depression but treatment did finally help me come out of it. I was never taught to be independent. I can never think straight & I haven’t felt like my normal self in a couple years I’m dying to know what it feels like. I didn’t take any medication during my depression (just for a week, but there were side effects that seriously scared me). They're wrong – it is a real illness with real symptoms. It will take time to recover from such memory loss. See that doctor and start treatment this very week. Have those pray for me. Some of the effects I feel are still clung onto me. The sun is shining. combined with a very stressful emotional situation concerning my biological father. and i can feel it lately alot of time. My Father who was a serial philanderer, has been the absent parent. Never give up. My conclusion is that your depressive symptoms can be part of an undiagnosed illness and when you heal your bosy your brain works much better. so sad it’s lingering from time to time. I think it might be different with you if your depression is there with you 24/7 every single day? How to be Happy And Reject Depression. Have you ever read The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle? I lost my study. I’m David, 39 with one 10yr old Son from a failed relationship. How am I today I’m 90% recovered. I’m just trying to convey how my depression feels. And I know what I need to do to get that feeling back… diet and exercise and positive reinforcement. I do pray that you feel better soon. Everybody is different, and everybody is beautiful in their own way, provided they are not nasty or cruel people! I guess you should ask yourself “What prevents me from having meningful relationships ?”. about art or game…etc. Im even feeling like its affecting my vision as I readjust. Sorry to write this. I’m sorry if this sounded all over the place. Also I tried to start doing the things I used to enjoy, only to begin…and sit there in a daze. It’s the hardest freakin thing but I can be done – slowly. I changed a lot. I think especially your comment Samantha gives a lot of insight into how depression works and how it destroys our lives, because of how unrefinedly we are judged by others. I m not a bad person i dont think This is a very profound and insightful comment and if more people realised that Depression is a flag that one has exceeded one’s stress tolerance set-level then perhaps AD’s would never be needed. I did go gluten free for depression, I did it because my husband became a celiac and later I found out that gluten does cause depression. But then at the same time I don’t know what to do. and the fact that everyone assumes I´m lazy is tearing me apart. She suffered from depression and took her own life, how terribly sad. I believe you are still suffering from depression, and some of these issue will work themselves out. I got deppression out the blue 7 years ago and almost didn’t survive. clouds will be vanishing but the footprints will take time to disappear. As to whether you'll ever be the same person again - I think you'll always keep those same qualities in you, and some will even have grown with what you are going through at the moment, only you can't see it that way right now. These things have changed through time. My mind just couldn’t function. You are absolutely fine….. Its just a tiny little phase of your life. That was so inspiring. Exploring alternative remedies is also something I would strongly recommend: Bach flower remedies are great, visit a medical herbalist, acupuncture, Yoga, sing, dance, but above all… be kind to yourself. I used to be a show off.. i used to be a little vain but never a bully or a violent person or nasty or vindictive… even when i went through a thuggish stage i still helped old ladies struggling to walk through an alley or on side of the road collapsed it’s my nature to help. now am 32. Having overcome most of this I noticed that some things just weren’t the same anymore. When it comes to anxiety, I hate public speaking. Pregnant Paloma Faith, 39, admits she wondered if she'd ever be happy again during postpartum depression battle... as star prepares for second baby Time and taking care of yourself will slowly but surely make it fade and turn the fake smile into a real smile that is truly happy to have overcome depression. I have dealt with depression for as long as I can remember. Internet had helped me lot. Just always keep an eye open in search of some bit of light from somewhere. But how? my friends laughs at me bcoz i cant remember anything. Also my physical body. Everyone I cared for has moved on in their lives. When people say I want to be myself again, I think they have in mind the times they were in top form. Who said YOU are the ones that have to change? Because that is something I’m wondering about too: Am I maybe just imagining all this? My latest episode has been on going for over 2 years. i felt like that. (Not gonna happen) It is the feeling of death, except one is still alive and must continue to live. My all-out efforts to take matters into my own hands continue to fail. It wasnt until may of 2015 when I lost my longterm job with a company id spent so many years working for giving them my blood sweat and tears that things took a turn for the worst. I think it’s guilt talking. It’s kinda sad that I feel the need to apologize for having gotten a family, me with the broken brain. What are the things we have to do to make her normal. It sure is complicated. This year he has had to quit working because, after 35 years of running his own mechanic shop, he couldn’t remember how to do simple jobs any longer, couldn’t understand what customers were saying, family and friends names, etc. You won’t get to where you want to be in one day either. I’m glad to know people are doing well, but that’s it. I was depressed for about 15 years and mindfulness was my savior as well. Find your problem and work hard fixing it (connect with persons who recovered, do long-term psychotherapy, not cbt one that usually works just on fixing supercial problems, and make a toolbox for skills needed to calm you down and boost neurogeneration like meditation, if needed take medication, for some also engaging in spiritual practice is a big support to recovery, approach at it holistically) I promise it is worth the effort. Someone once said to me that I needed to learn to love myself. Right now, you’ll learn 3 reasons why making this your goal helps you become depression-free faster and easier. It is vital that you acknowledge each new and beneficial thing you add to your life. Very important!). Hello soni, I want you to know you’re a strong human being for dealing with it for three years. oohh this really helps me understand depression and helps me for a class project. My family has had to pay for all the expenses regarding a private school, therapy etc. Be careful not to do unreasonable things like getting into fights, or other drama, things that could serve as a spark to reignite all the highly flammable emotional fuel left by your depression. But I’m so dang tired. You are normal. And if you don’t have any, I’ll gladly be one of them! Losing a job, a relationship or a loved one can be a very traumatic event. I think I just have a lot of fear and anger, and life seems so complicated. Our stories are very similar, but I’m too depressed/apathetic to write out my whole story. But then also the loneliness was too lonely. First he was very angry with everyone then, like a light switch being flipped, he just shut down. are you there? may b i was depressed and i just break it thinking abt him and forget? Finally this Easter I lost it. “ “when will I ever feel normal again?” The doctors were not listening or taking me seriously. Did some suicidal attempts. They’ve got good resilience. End up crying myself to sleep 2. We have circadian rhythms for a reason – for our homeostasis. If the situation messed up your life, it was too much. I feel like I can do no more. I watched the movie “This is where I leave you” and one of the characters has depression and and she said because of her depression medication she has no filters. before this i was a brilliant student. I lost hope, no one helped me they thought I was just stressed and agressive, even my family. I know it is sucks right now and you feel you wont be normal again but amazingly you can and most probably will be. HELLO, I DON’T WANT TO NAME MYSELF BECAUSE ITS NOT IMPORTANT. As long as I can stay mindful and pay attention to what the people around the most are seeing, and not shrug it off, I will stay strong and hopefully depression free. Book Club. I feel so helpless and alone. but bad for people but thanks for all this stuff that is on this site. I’ve lost my career, my love, my money, my health. If playback doesn't begin shortly, try restarting your device. I used to love the night because it was a time of finally relaxing after a long day, but now it’s like the time when the ‘monsters’ come out and I either 1. I can’t get the thought out of my head some days I’m fine other days I’m not… I just want to be normal again.. My kids see the difference in me I do try and act different around them but at times I just want to run away and never look back.. My wife and my son matter so much but Its not fun when i feel them being effected by my unhappiness and depression. I knew than in that moment that it wasnt about me anymore. Hi I have been living with depression for as long as I can remember. I can’t concentrate on anything and all I want to do it sit and not talk. Recognising the signs of low stress tolerance in our young and teaching them how to structure and make lifestyle choices that suit a low stress tolerance profile would be incredibly beneficial. Even to myself. Pleas do not give into this monstrous disease, please reach out for the lifeline of professional help. I just want us to be happy but I feel like I get overwhelmed a lot so I get so stressed out it makes me feel low about my self then turns in to depression. What I mean is that from that moment on you yourself will do your best to destroy your own life up to an extent that is merely limited by how hopeless you feel. Put a smile on your face. Hey I believe I am having purely a situational bout of depression, meaning I’m pretty sure I don’t have chronic depression. It took many years to be normal again as I became seltered, quiet and even socially awkward. It took me more than 2 years until those periods of intense pain got less frequent and waking up every day got a little less scary. Im going through a serious financial crisis right now. I have not tried to take my life but have been near it. If you’re in great shape after an episode of major depression, meaning full remission of all symptoms, it will probably be a long time before you have another episode. -increases your health I go to work every day. I have been feeling really blue, and this helped me feel less alone. My dad tried killing himself when he found out my mom found someone else to make her happy. but something happened to me when I was about 12 years old. I was always so happy, but a little while ago I started to realize how truly meaningless everything is. If those are going away, you’ve “responded” to treatment. I destoryed my once good credit, many of my friendships and bonds with people I trusted. i dont really take pills and never consulted someone who can help me. I experienced this daily for at least 3 decades. My memory is terrible and requires constant written reminders of even the most basic things. As you get older you will see you’ll go through good periods and rough times. I find nature helps. :( helppp I know what it's like to feel so down that it looks as if there is no way things are ever going to look up again. Living with them has been a significant psychological change that has often blocked me from testing myself to see exactly what I can accomplish. I felt like I was listening to my deepest inner feelings when I was reading this. It took me three years of continuous therapy sessions, CBT, and medication for my memory to finally recover close to how it once was. I wish I was at the point where things make more sence. Two years of hiding in my home. 5 Ways To Cope When Life Gets Really Friggin' Hard. She’s already seeing someone else within 3 weeks of decimating my existence (hardly a surprise you might say given my neglect of her). I could not find what was it.i lost my self confidence my memory. As a Christian I have often told Jesus and my Heavenly Father how I feel and he has always been there to help me, guide me, comfort and support me. I am on my own now not seeing anyone now for nearly 2 months. A lot of times at the Uni, things were mentally taxing, but I was seriously happy. I suffered depression from the age of 17. I think what could help you when you mentioned job training and stuff like that, maybe you could take notes during it so that way you can look back on them and refresh your memory. Personality problems: I have wasted my life and continue to do so. But right now I’m so indecisive I don’t know how to commit to a relationship if I’m honest. i was in love with someone X. after some days he started abusing me . Even now i feel like im acting out.. and deep down i really dont want the attention or to be labelled as someone who has mental issues.. i got so much stuff and no one to talk to for years and years. Recently she got some boyfriend issue and also due to work pressure she got so much depressed that she dint sleep for 3-4 days and was not eating any food and all of a sudden she was showing symptoms like murmuring to herself, repeating the names many times, Suddenly crying and also blaming that somebody has mixed something in her food. We all change and do we actually want to be the old “me”? It took the only part that made me feel alive. I dread every single day. Is it still working for depression. Then after the interview I could structure what I was meant to say but the point is I didn’t say it at the time. I lost my boyfriend over a month a go and today I tried getting him back and he said please don't make this harder and that he's happy now . That is why I am so surprised that I missed it with my husband! Due to the fact she stopped me, I physically assaulted her and she ended up with bruises on her neck and long cuts on her forearm from my nails. I have already planned the suicide out in details and I have various scenerios, but the one im sticking with will make my family think that I have moved to another country, so I can spare them of as much pain as possible. I am constantly sad and anxious – it physically hurts to smile, so much so that I get very anxious in any social situation because I know I will have to pretend to laugh and smile and that will only make me feel worse. . This depression im in now has lasted 3 or 4 years. The risk of recurrence is all too real, so following the treatment you’ve chosen and adapting your life style to stay as healthy as possible are wise and necessary strategies. Everyone has a breaking point. It has been a rocky and winding road but I now have 5 years of continuous sobriety. This broke my heart and my dismissal came in February of this year(2013). Ohh so ur main problam is memory.so u should take memory sharpning remedies like brahmi tonic n omega-3.isse tumhri problem kam ho sakti h. Best of luck. I am okay right now- I have won my personal battle,so sure with that, but I admit it is equally harder to fight the battle against the world ( especially I am affected with how my family feels). Any advise, I have been on Lexapro for almost 4 yrs. Woke up Fri. 9/15 & depressed as hell. -you get to see the outside (if you do it outside): just like a dog doesn’t feel well kept inside a box all day your brain also doesn’t. And am married and I suffer every day with depression my children are suffering as well having to see me like this they wanna play and I don’t I sit here and just cry I am taking tofrinol I don’t think its working I have taking other meds that didn’t work neither I’m hopeless and don’t know what to do everyday I say how much I hate my life I love my children but is this gonna effect them badly will they suffer it I dont know what to do and how to change I use to be so happy and a goofball now I’m just this miserable blah who wants to do nothing but cry and be by myself, Calm down my brother. Naturally, some people do better than others. Become a fighter u will do. I had lots of A’s for my grades I became a top student. What started to be a sadness, became frustration, hopelessness, hate and now i just cannot smile anymore. I went through about a year and a half where I just slept or was in constant mental anguish. I’ve effectively created and handed over the amunition and gun to justify such a course. I tell myself it’s probably normal to “Feel different” ” Not the same person I use to be” Its a walking, or not walking nightmare. … like i say i got so much, lots to talk about that all join up i dont know where to stop so im going to now i dont know if im loading this in the right place or whether ive said too much. I’ve read that the offspring coming from one or both parents that have the disorder has a great chance to get the disorder. Usually, when someone says they are battling depression, most people will immediately assume that they are pathetic and gloomy. Long term effects of depression, for me, diminished credibility. I think ive been depressed or messed up since i was 8-9-10 when my mum split. I´m at the point if nothing changes I will probably kill my self. I am doing it and its not easy but once you have even a spark of hope there cling to it. I have however, another 10 months on, I have now begun to come to terms with this rejection and think that it’s actually their loss and that they should be ashamed at their heartlessness. I only feel comfortable when I’m alone. How do you hold out hope when you cant find a way out? My first official diagnonsis was 18years ago, when I/my depression pushed away the first real love of my life. It’s always been peaceful and respectful here. I’ve had a long fight with this sort of caution, fear and avoidance. I find that the “small steps approach” has a lot going for it. I don’t even really know what I’m trying to say here. I’m still not out of the woods but to learn I may never be is at best disheartening at worst he’ll on earth. Then you can explain in confidence. at this tym i m like a looser. I wouldn’t want to be my “old” self. I became obsessed by porn using it EVERY morning repeatedly after she had gone to work, whilst ignoring her sexually for 14 whole months. 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